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So since July 4th me and my boyfriend decided to travel across the country since his job is at home due to covid and I always work from home. It’s been an amazing experience during these not so amazing times. This constant moving around just makes me want to drink and drink and drink. Like we need to try ever new bar we come across .. the thing is he can have one and be done. I can’t. I need to completely avoid alcohol entirely. I’ve been a member of monument for a couple months. I really want to not drink anymore :( 

It’s been a while since Ive been on here. Its been a rough two weeks, kinda just went off the rails. Starting over today. Feeling pretty shitty about myself and my lack of discipline. 

We had a friend over last night and I slipped up and had a few drinks.. I don’t know how to have the conversation with my boyfriend that I dont want to drink anymore. Maybe eventually it’ll be okay to have a glass of wine with dinner without wanting to chug the entire bottle. I am actually pretty proud of myself because I just start with my Naltrexone and wasn’t sure how it would react with alcohol so I had 2 vodka sodas and 2 bourbons over the course of 5 hours... for me that’s like not even drinking. I never had my ice cubes completely melt before I was finished drinking a drink ... new experience. Also it was strange being the most sober person in the room. I’ve never done that. When I had my moments of sobriety I would just avoid all social interaction that involved alcohol... ALSO Ive never seen my boyfriend drunk without being completely gone myself.  He’s a pretty level headed down to earth guy and was acting like an idiot so god only knows the ass that ive been making out of myself over the last 6-7 years -_-  I’m upset that I drank but also proud that it wasn’t a complete binge. it didn’t shake me up enough to be in the “fuck it” mentality again. — my question is though ... whats the best way to have this conversation ? I honestly don’t want to drink any more, I don’t want to wake up one day and be 45 with a fatty liver or some other health problem because I couldn’t put the bottle down.. I want to live long enough to see my grandkids! My boyfriend knows I have an issue with alcohol he knows I have been to AA , and he’s actually one of the main reason I want to stop drinking because he is seriously fed up with me being the “drunk girl“ at ever outing or social event. all suggestions are welcome ! 

I know the first week is always the hardest but DAMN I feel like the mega madusa bitch the crawled from the gates of hell to make everyones day bad.. lol sorry I have to make a joke out of myself to get thru this. Anyone else in the early days feeling like the want to punch a door ?  

Hi , 

this isnt so much about sharing but is there an actual app for monument ? Because I’ve just been using the web browser version and if there was an app I can download I feel like id be more engaging with y’all 

Hello 👋 

Im you’re text book definition of functioning alcoholic. I have been in and out of AA for 5ish years now only holding on to sobriety for a month at a time. If youre “only an alco “ you know the struggle of walking into a meeting and having everyone look at you like “you haven’t been to rehab? what youre totally fine” ... but you’re obviously not because you turned to AA as a last stitch effort to get your life on the right track. EVERYONE in my family drinks and it is nearly impossible to have a “healthy” relationship without alcohol... ironic right? I signed up for monument when covid hit because being home all day everyday was really getting hard, which I am sure most of you can relate too. finally deciding to commit to this and give it a whirl. I am hoping that the community here will be a little different than AA and I can finally clean my liver out