I'm feeling like sobriety is really starting to wear me down. I'm having more and more days where it's just one craving after another, and it feels like I'm not doing very well at getting anything done, which makes me start to question if this is worth it. I feel like I'm getting no break from realizing that I'm performing in a subpar way in every aspect of my life and it's hard to deal with that. It feels like I'm working at 100% all the time and I'm not getting a lot out of it. I do believe it will pay off in the long run, but it's hard right now. Any tips for dealing with this situation? Has anyone experienced something similar and gotten through it?
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I feel like I can't handle weathering strong craving that lasts an hour, having a two minute break, and then handling another one! This is like childbirth, or, like, trying to hold a plank for a week/forever. What the heck do you do? Sleeping doesn't help, and anyway, I have responsibilities. Other drinks don't put a dent in it. Meditation, exercise, and taking care of my daughter are just exhausting in a different way. I don't have any friends and I'll be darned if I know how to make any. I feel like there is a limit to how long I can go without giving in and this is miserable. What do you do? Any ideas are very welcome at this point.
It's been 5 days since I drank, 10 since I was drunk. And I am completely exhausted! Yesterday I fell apart at around 4 pm and just had to go to bed at 5. Today I reached the point of exhaustion and tears at noon. I'm sure the fact that I had to spend 5 half hour chunks fighting not to drive to the liquor store is part of that. Maybe this is normal, but I have to work, and especially I have to be functional when I'm taking care of my daughter during the day! Any tips on just coping with a normal level of responsibilities without major meltdowns?
. . because I wanted so badly to quit but later in the moment it was like I totally lost control. I hope medication will let me make decisions about whether I want to drink (no) ahead of time, and therapy and support groups will help me manage my response to losing this coping mechanism.