"We hear alot about the pain of samsara, and we also hear about liberation. But we don't hear much about how painful it is to go from being completely stuck to becoming unstuck. The process of becoming unstuck requires tremendous bravery, because basically we are completely changing our way of perceiving reality, like changing our DNA. We are undoing a pattern that's not just our pattern. It's the human pattern."--- Pema Chodron.
Dear Readers, I am stuck AF. I see it, and I am trying to gain the bravery needed to change my relationship with alcohol. The Naltrexone is helping, but it makes me feel pretty yucky. I'm talking with the doctor about that today. What I see now is I'm using alcohol as a stand in for many other things. But of course, that's a Catch-22 because overuse takes away these very things-- real connection with people, the energy to change my life.... and sorry I feel I have to post anonymously, but I'm embarrassed and angry at myself for getting into this position.