This is harder than I thought.
Some days I don't feel 'right', nothing feels 'right', if I don't have that first sip. Which makes everything 'right'. Everything hurts. People irritate me. Take that first one, bliss.
I know I need help. I just don't know how do I commit myself, and I can't visualize my life without it. It's terrifying. I would rather drink than feel angry about everything and anything.