So, I had my appointment today with the doctor and he prescribed the medicine everyone is talking about. So, yesterday was exhausting. I am in the middle of an autoimmune flair and everything is swollen. I can physically feel my organs hurting. I did not do much yesterday but binge watch shows and do some shopping because that is all my body could handle. I filled my fridge with gluten/dairy free options and plenty of fruits for smoothies.
My problem is boredom and booze helps fill that void but my body can no longer tolerate it. I was sick to my stomach, headache and everything hurt. It was a restless night waking up in a pile of my own sweat to just then freeze and have to change clothes. I did it though!
I woke up sluggish but after breakfast I feel okay. So, I work from home. The toughest time for me will be tonight when I get home from the gym and I look around and am like 'now what'. That was my time to drink so I could go to sleep. I think I'll spend more time at the gym after my workout in the Sauna. Normally I would finish up quick, run to the store and get drinking until I pass out on the sofa.
My relationship with alcohol has to change and I took that step not because I want to give it up. It is my friend. I gave it up because my body is saying 'No More'. I do not want to die before I am 40 or even end up like my mother(Adult child of an alcoholic here).
Thanks for reading.