I’m 19 days in, due to shipping delays I haven’t started Naltrexone yet but should receive it today. Of the 19, I’ve drank on 4 of these days, each time one bottle of wine and two beers, that’s my normal. I’m so proud of how many days I’ve stayed dry. When I do drink, I still wanna finish the bottle but I’m focusing on the progress so far. My husband drinks heavily most nights so steering clear can be a huge challenge.
What is helping me the most is my true acknowledgement and ownership I have about how much I normalized my 5-6 night a week habit. In my head I would justify by saying to myself “I deserve this” or “I’m fun not a boring square” “I’m handling this” I now see what bull these statements are. I’m a successful business owner and to the outside world most would think I’m doing great. However, that wasn’t the case.
I'm now so grateful to feel so much calmer, my anxiety has mellowed, I feel more centered when I look my two daughters in the eye. I’m also no longer concerned about my liver every moment of the day. I have several friends who have lost their battle with AUD, leaving the world before the age of 50. :(
One thing I know to be 100% true. I will never regret a night of abstaining, EVER. I’m 48 and really excited about not carrying around this 50lb backpack every damn day. Alcohol, for me wine, is that wild friend that you love, who has the worst influence on you, each time you invite them into your life it’s a bit like playing Russian roulette.
Hi @genevieve Thank you for reaching out -- I'm really glad you decided to write. I know many can relate to your experience here. On a personal note, I know how tricky it is to appear okay on the outside while struggling behind the scenes. That is incredibly common, and it takes a lot of courage to take the action necessary to get from where you are to where you want to be (internally!). I commend your willingness to show up for yourself, as hard as I know it can be. Have you gotten around to browsing our site? Let me know if you need any support navigating. Here for you! 💚
Thank you!
One day at a time. We don't need to be perfect, just continue to strive to be better.
Very well said! Thanks for sharing I am going to write down some of your words to remember them when I am struggling. thanks
Hi Karmic,
We've got a wonderful, honest community here, it takes a village. Another tool Im using is the Try Dry app. It has a calendar and chart I use to track my progress. I like the visual, I find it encouraging. Sending love and support.